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I still think about you...every day.
I miss you, even though I know I shouldn't. Any theories about that? Why are you still on my mind after all this time? I don't want to miss you, but I can't get you out of my head. There must be a reason for that.
I miss our conversations until 2 AM, and the way you always beat around the bush and make me work to figure out what you mean. I miss your constantly tapping fingers and your witty comebacks. I miss the questions that have nothing to do with our conversation but everything to do with us. I miss your smile and the way it makes me feel.
I didn't think I could miss you like this, but let me tell you, babe. I do. I wish I knew what went wrong. Although I doubt it would be useful at all. It might only make me feel worse, but at least there would be no confusion.
My heart still jumps when I get a text message. My memories of your smile are just as vivid as the last day I saw you. Your name still causes a flutter of butterflies.
I could sit here and tell you that you never cross my mind. But that would be a lie. I could tell you that it won't even matter in a few years but I'm always going to remember you.
One of these days, I'll find a way to move on. I'll wake up one day and you won't be the first thing on my mind. I'll be able to listen to any music I want and not remember something you said. I'll be able to think of our time as friends with a smile on my face.
Because you really did make me happy. Happier than you know. It didn't last, but it was nice while it lasted. And I just wanted to say thank you.
P.S. I miss you.




Written a couple weeks ago. I still cry about it, but it's whatever. I'm a big girl, I'll get over it one day.

I hear your voice
In the silence
I see your face
When I close my eyes
You make me smile
By being you
I break the mold
And forget my disguise
You know that I am here
Should you ever need me
I hope that you are there
If I ever need you
Things change and time passes on
But the ghosts of our past
Will never forget us
Unless we forget them too



It's pretty bad, the rhyme scheme is all off. But I wrote this in Psych class a couple months ago when I wasn't paying attention. So there it is...

I wrote this in Bio class the other day cuz I wasn't paying attention and felt like writing something...It's pretty pathetic, but it's all stuff I needed to say and I can't say it to his face so why not post a blog about it? Like it or not, I don't care. It was mostly just written to help me cope.

 I decided to post something. I'm feelin' pretty good right about now. I have an English paper due in the morning and I think it's a really, really good paper. For once, I actually like it. And I finished three sections of Math homework. And Vampire Diaries comes on in about 20 minutes. And Eastwick premiered last night and I'm gonna watch the episode I missed online after VD. And I'm going home this weekend. And I have a new nephew who I can't wait to see.
Today was a pretty good day. I actually did my work today. The last few days, I've been hanging out with some new friends from Church and I've been going to bed really late and not doing my work. But we decided to take a break tonight, so now it's gonna be a few days before I see them again. But that's okay, it gives me time to catch up on all the work I didn't do and the sleep I didn't get. These people are so crazy and so fun. I can't believe I went this long before meeting them. It's great. And the next few years are gonna be awesome with them around.
I went out Saturday night for the first time in my life. We went to a bar called Cowboys. It was pretty crazy. We didn't get back to our room until almost 5 AM. It was great. And I had so much fun. I will definitely be going again, as long as we put a couple weeks in between. Haha. I need recovery time.
My new nephew was born on September 18, 2009 and is named Eli Aedan. He weighed 10 lbs and 2 oz and was 22 in long. I cannot wait to see him. Unfortunately, I have to wait until March because they live in New Jersey and I live in Louisiana. But March will be here soon and I will get to spend time with my brothers, sisters and nephews. And I am SOOO EXCITED!!!!!
Well....I think that's enough rambling for tonight, so I'm gonna go mentally prepare myself for Vampire Diaries and catch up on Eastwick after that. Then it's beddy-by for Bethany.

I'm posting for the first time in what seems like forever. I wrote a poem a couple months back and posted that, but that's all.
This post is at the request of my new LJ friend, ravenery . Hopefully I won't bore her with my lame life. (:

( I still think that we're in love... )

 Ok...so it's been a REALLY long time since I posted anything.
I get sidetracked. I've been wanting to post something since my last day of class, way back in May. One day I will write that entry, but today is not that day.
Today is a poem I finally finished writing. It's the first I've written in a loooonnng time, so it probably sucks, but I'm gonna post it anyway.
Here it is:

( All I Have by Bethany M )




Thanks.
Love,
Bethany

I don't really identify with any of them, and I never have. I just always loved anything Winnie the Pooh as a kid. Even today, I flip over Pooh and Eeyore. He was always my favorite out of everyone. He was so emo, I found him hilarious. And my dad does a perfect impersonation of his most famous line. "Thank you for noticin'." Everytime I see Eeyore, I think of my dad.

I have a few Harry Potter's, some Atonement's and some James McAvoy's. Made them a while back, but just got to post them.

( M O R E O V E R H E R E  )

So...it's been quite a while since I actually posted anything on my own page. Here is an update, as if any of you care. Ha ha

( Because I don't feel like studying. )

I had a great weekend...
But everything else has been crap.
( More ranting her. )

OMG!!!
I'm about to go super-bitch on somebody.
( Wanna know why? Follow the cut. )

UGH!!! I hate hurricanes.
Makes me want to book a flight to P. E. Island today!!!

( My reasoning behind this wish. )

I would want it to be Anne Shirley of Anne of Green Gables because I could ask her all the unanswered questions I have, plus with her imagination and mine, we'd never be bored! It would be great.

The Big Read thinks the average adult has only read six of the top 100 books they've printed below.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicise those you intend to read
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read six and force books upon them.


( i read. a lot. ) 
I was surprised at how many of these I'd actually never heard of. 10/100 sounds horrible, but I've read so much more that wasn't on this list. Shocked that nothing from Nicholas Sparks is on this list. I've read a few of his and really liked them. Also, some others by Jane Austen. Many of these I've been meaning to read for years but never got around to it. Or my mind wouldn't focus long enough for me to really get into them. Several I have attempted in the past, some more than once. But I'm only 17, not technically an adult yet. I've got time. Ha ha.

How about everyone else?

Oh, wow! This weekend was amazing!!!!!!!
( With one small hiccough. )

 I call this guy I've known for about 5 years. He'll never see this but I still won't say his name. I tell him that I still love him, that I've always loved him, more than a brother and that if I live, I WILL always love him. And that no matter what he says or does or thinks, he is still everything to me. Then I ask him politely if he will make sure my family and friends and classmates and everyone else I know knows for sure that I love them, no matter how big a bitch I am to them sometimes.